About - Farzana Gunjan

My Story

Early Childhood

My childhood looked very different than where I am today. I grew up in a conservative muslim family, and a society shaped by patriarchy. Any form of entertainment was forbidden in our house, we were not allowed to have hobbies, not even listen to music. One of the core memories I have from my childhood is when my father cheated, I was only 4 at that time. It shattered my mom & our family entirely. My mom took us and left that home immediately. Though my parents made up after some time but nothing was same. I never played with my father again after that incident, became a caregiver to my mother at that age.

This created a huge wound within me . I hated my father most of my life, deep down I was sh*t scared of him as well. I catered for my mothers emotional needs so much that I forgot I could have some needs as well. Over time, we built a deep but unhealthy codependency. I mistook it for love and care. Every decision I made was filtered through: “How will this affect my mother” or “What will be my fathers reaction?”. I tip toed around my own house fearing any wrong move will ruin the harmony of this house. I never felt safe there ever again but didn’t realise it until the age of 28.

When I was a teenager my father cheated again, and same cycle repeated. The family almost broke, suddenly they got back together one day without any explanation. My teenage self couldn’t take it, I got clinically depressed, lost 10 kgs within months, developed anger issues and IBS as a result.

I have carried these burden of emotional baggages whole my life.

Trauma Bond & Narcissictic Abuse

Fast forward to adult relationships- in my first relationship there was bare minimum effort from my partner, eventually it ended when I got micro cheated. Then I fell in love with a college senior, at first it felt like magic, kinda too good to be true. I was high on love bombs and blindsided all the red flags as a result. After four years of passionate love we got married. I used to believe he is my soulmate, only to realize later- it was actually a trauma bond. I was gaslighted, manipulated, and abused – emotionally, verbally, and at times physically. His Narcissistic abuse and addiction made our home full of chaos. As a codependent I was the perfect match for a narcissist. I kept giving and giving until I became empty inside and there was nothing left for myself.

I stayed longer than needed in that relationship, I was actually trying to fix it somehow. Because I couldn’t see a life ecxept the life I had back then. I married my soulmate, was running a successful business – A so called settled life it seemed! But staying longer only broke me more, My mental health collapsed; depression, anxiety, PTSD, and panic attacks became a regular thing in life. I reached out for help, but even therapy failed me. My therapist shamed me saying I wouldn’t survive society as a divorcee.

Then came the night that broke me completely. I was on my way to a concert with my sisters when the abuse escalated over the phone. I called my mother crying, and her first response was, “What will your father say? We also don’t like this kind of activities.”
That was the moment something inside me finally snapped. I felt completely alone, like I had nowhere to go and no one who cared. I almost ended my life that night, but somehow I survived with the help from a friend.

Turning point & Healing Journey

The next day, I reached out to a life coach , she was the one who held the first light on my shadows and showed me how my childhood trauma has been shaping my adult relationships and how my own codependency is the perfect home for a narcissist. That’s where my transformation began. My divorce was happening at the same time, and during that period, I faced the most painful betrayal of all – my mother sided with my ex, stayed in contact with him, and even asked me to return my own belongings. My father’s reaction was harsh as well, questioning my independence and responsibility.

Through inner child healing, shadow work, reparenting, and manifestation, I began uncovering my authentic self. Healing wasn’t linear; sometimes it felt overwhelming, but I continued, layer by layer. I even healed physical conditions I struggled with for years, like asthma, allergies, and nerve pains.

My Purpose and Mission

I realized my healing wasn’t meant to end with just me. I felt a deep calling to share my light with others. I started writing, then creating content, and eventually got trained to became a meditation and healing coach.

Three and a half years into the journey, I conduct live and online sessions, helping people reconnect with their inner world, understand their patterns, and reclaim their power.

This is my purpose:
to heal myself, and to help others find the light within themselves.

My Transformation & How I Can Support Yours

Through my journey, I transformed my,

Fear into inner safety
Patterns of trauma into self-awareness
Codependency into self-trust
Emotional pain into purpose
Survival mode into conscious living
Challenges into personal power

I now guide others through this process with compassion, clarity, and intention. Whether you are healing from past trauma, overcoming patterns of emotional abuse, learning to love yourself, or manifesting a life aligned with your true self you don’t have to navigate it alone.

The light is already within you. I’m here to help you find it.